“Real surrender comes when one starts to know the greatness of God.” – Haidakhan Babaji
As one starts to become aware of the greatness of God in all aspects of life, then they will be better able to trust and surrender to that god.
Just to be clear, you call your higher power by whatever name suits your personal relationship with him, her, or it. There is no prequalifying or defending when it comes to your beliefs. This is not a religious forum but sectarian. For the sake of ease, I will be referring to ‘Higher Power’ as God and he/him.
When my teacher Jack, back in 2001, told me I had to start to ‘Trust and Surrender’ my first thought is ‘I’m not surrendering to anyone.’ To me the term surrender meant to lose, give up, be a failure, basically not be good enough.
So, Jack started the arduous task of educating me on just what trust and surrender really means. The very first thing he said was “To trust and surrender takes an enormous amount of courage and wisdom, something you lack at this moment. The second thing is you have to let go of the thought that you are in control. The one thing you will never have in this world is control, and the only thing you will ever have is this moment.” That would become a mantra until I incorporated it into my core and it became one with me.
And thus, I continued my path as a Spiritual Warrior. I first learned that to surrender meant that I have exhausted everything at my disposal that I could think of to render a solution to whatever is going on, and when I could not find resolution to the situation, I surrendered my way of thinking and asked for others thoughts, opinions, and ideas. I just was surrendering to the fact that I alone could not come up with a solution. That it is okay to ask for help.
“God is good, everything is good, God is all powerful.” Jack would say, God isn’t an old man with a long white beard floating in the heavens, he is one with everyone and everything. God lives in me, through me, above me, and below me. I started to build a relationship with God, acknowledging that in this relationship I could trust God to take care of everything, most importantly, those things that are beyond my capabilities. In building a relationship with God I came to understand that God actually cares about me, my life, what I go through, my experiences, and most of all, my relationship with him. I wasn’t just a speck on a planet called Earth in this vast oasis of a universe that he didn’t have time for.
I started to meditate on a daily basis, starting slow. I would sit for about ten minutes each day and just try to quiet my mind. To be still. After years of practice I am now able to meditate every second, all day in all my affairs. I would turn my life and my will over to the care of God as I understand him. Not just in a morning prayer, but all day long. I practiced this, and practiced this, and practiced this. I had to incorporate this too into my core being.
Knowledge is not enough; I had to transfer that knowledge into my soul so completely that it is easier to call upon then counting to ten. And in order for that to happen I have to practice at it. Believe it. Witness it happening right before my eyes and accept it as truth. Then I had to practice some more.
I started to pay attention to all the little things that would happen in my life. The things I took for granted that I ‘expected’ to happen to me because ‘I deserve it.’ The coincidences that occurred on a regular basis that I used to chalk off as nothing more than idiosyncrasies of the world. I realized that by trusting and surrendering that I could funnel my will all day long for what I want, but under no circumstance am I to be attached to the outcome. When I got what I wanted, I say thank you God, and when I don’t get what I want, I say thank you God for knowing what’s best for me, holding no Ill will towards God, people, places, things or institutions for not giving me what I want. In that small act of humility, I now see how God always provides something I didn’t expect one hundred times better than what I was originally asking for. Trusting God is letting go of fear.
It was in these small acts that I started to see the miracles that would occur all around me on a monthly basis, then weekly basis, then daily basis, then hourly basis, and now every second of every day. I slowly became aware of the greatness of God, watching, listening, feeling and knowing in my core, having woken up to a God consciousness that is so powerful that today I am able to commune with my God.
Today I surrender everything to God, let him drive the bus as they say. I am a passenger on this ride called life, enjoying all the beauty this world has to offer. I see the beauty and love in everyone and everything
One day not too long ago while at work, I am a Chef by trade, God, out of the blue said “You are done cooking. Quit this job and finish writing the book you started. I will take care of you and provide for you. Do this for me.” I gave two weeks’ notice, left the job and have been writing ever since.
Jack is right, God is good, everything is good, God is all powerful. As the years go by and the more that I relinquish that I am not in control, the easier it is to trust and surrender to my higher power in all my affairs. Today I walk in a relationship with God, in peace, serenity, and happiness with Love for all things. Fear does not dictate my life, choices or actions anymore.
There are no more maps, no more creeds, no more philosophies. From here on in, the directions come straight from the divine. The curriculum is being revealed millisecond by millisecond – invisibly, intuitively, spontaneously, lovingly. As one of Thomas Merton’s monks has it, “Go into your cell and your cell will teach you everything there is to know.” Your cell. Yourself.